Our lives are filled with experiences that if left up to us, we would have never faced. Life has a way of breaking us but also exalting us. Good times of pleasure allow us to rejoice and think highly of ourselves. While bad times of sadness leave us in despair and hating ourselves. Doubt grips the mind but also the soul, and sucks all hope away. But in time of doubt I sprint to find a finish line of hope in Gods word.
My Doubt
Wrestling with the inability to sufficiently do my calling of God, that is to preach and pastor a flock of his, I’ve became overwhelmed with my own drive. Thinking I will never study enough, I never will have the intelligence needed to do my job. To preach God’s word in such a way that it will make others fall in love with the author. The same way that I have fallen in love with him. So I found this precious gift in scripture that allowed me some peace in my storm.
Matthew 14:22-32
Understanding who has sent you v.22
In this verse Jesus compelled his disciples to get into the boat and go unto the other side. This is key to destroying doubt. For if we know that we are obeying what Christ has commanded, we can have hope in the fruit that Christ can bring with it.
Understand who controls your circumstance v.24
The wind was driving the boat the opposing way from which they wanted to go. Keeping them in a spin. A glorious thing to note, Christ made the seas Col 1:16 “For by him were all things created, that are in heaven, and that are in earth, visible and invisible, whether they be thrones, or dominions, or principalities, or powers: all things were created by him, and for him:” One may be in a storm, with winds pushing in the opposing direction, in my case the wind of doubt. Never forget that those winds have a purpose and that those winds was made by Christ. For if Christ Created the seas, he also controls the seas.
The situation is sometimes longer than wanted v.25
The fourth watch, the final watch. A long time they had been out trying to get unto the other side. Yet all attempts were failing. In life this can be true also, climbing and climbing yet feeling as if you will never reach the mountain top. Not always will a prayer be answered or a situation be changed on time(or rather, in our time). However, Christ showed up when he seen fit for him to do so.
Who is your main concern v.28-29
After Christ makes his announcement that it is him, Peter no longer wanted to be in the boat. He wanted to reach Christ. What is our concern in anytime we are faced with doubt? Is it to turn away from our helper? Is it to turn to a particular sin for comfort? For as Peter, we should not want to get anywhere but closer to Christ! Doubt should drive us to dive at the saviors feet!
Get comfort in Christ v.31
Peter called and Christ answered. In times of doubt we are sinking in to places which we are afraid of. We should call unto Christ. For we see the comfort in him, for he catches us. When doubt is in full throttle. Throw yourself upon Christ, see him, cherish him, adore him, and in doing so the storm stops on a dime.
